Coffee Break

where am i?

its been longer than i thought that i have shared and bared my soul in here... hah! but what do i say? when both my mind and my body is tired... when all i have is just a little piece of sanity calling out for a long and deep nothingness... freedom from all these so called humanity and LIFE. when time is short and days seems to have pass me by... though i might see my life in great advances, yet i feel it becoming more empty. i need to feed my soul, free this lonely heart and just go on... live a life... and be like once before... a dreamer... an adventurer... an artist... a little girl... me.

a korean soul's voice on the philippines

A certain friend sent me this forwarded msg at yahoo. It's an essay written by a korean student here in the Philippines sent by some anonymous pinoy... what's in it really got to me, big... read...

MY SHORT ESSAY ABOUT THE PHILIPPINES
Jaeyoun Kim

Filipinos always complain about the corruption in
the Philippines .. Do you really think the corruption
is the problem of the Philippines ? I do not
think so. I strongly believe that the problem is
the lack of love for the Philippines ..

Let me first talk about my country, Korea ..
It might help you understand my point.
After the Korean War, South Korea was one
of the poorest countries in the world. Koreans
had to start from scratch because entire country was
destroyed after the Korean War, and we had no
natural resources.

Koreans used to talk about the Philippines , for
Filipinos were very rich in Asia .. We envy Filipinos.
Koreans really wanted to be well off like
Filipinos. Many Koreans died of famine.
My father & brother also died because of famine.
Korean government was very corrupt and is still very
corrupt beyond your imagination, but Korea was
able to develop dramatically because Koreans really
did their best for the common good with their heart
burning with patriotism.

Koreans did not work just for themselves but also
for their neighborhood and country. Education inspired
young men with the spirit of patriotism.

40 years ago, President Park took over the
government to reform Korea .. He tried to borrow money
from other countries, but it was not possible to get a
loan and attract a foreign investment because the
economic situation of South Korea was so bad. Korea had
only three factories. So, President Park sent many mine
workers and nurses to Germany so that
they could send money to Korea to build a factory.
They had to go through horrible experience.

In 1964, President Park visited Germany to borrow
money. Hundred of Koreans in Germany came to the
airport to welcome him and cried there as they saw
the President Park .. They asked to him, "President,
when can we be well off?" That was the only question
everyone asked to him. President Park cried with
them and promised them that Korea would be well
off if everyone works hard for Korea , and the President
of Germany got the strong impression on them
and lent money to Korea .. So, President Park was
able to build many factories in Korea .. He always
asked Koreans to love their country from their heart.

Many Korean scientists and engineers in the USA
came back to Korea to help developing country
because they wanted their country to be well off.
Though they received very small salary, they did their
best for Korea .. They always hoped that their children
would live in well off country.

My parents always brought me to the places where
poor and physically handicapped people live. They
wanted me to understand their life and help them.
I also worked for Catholic Church when I was in the army.
The only thing I learned from Catholic Church was that we
have to love our neighborhood. And, I have loved my
neighborhood. Have you cried for the
Philippines ? I have cried for my country several
times. I also cried for the Philippines because of so many
poor people. I have been to the New Bilibid
prison. What made me sad in the prison were the
prisoners who do not have any love for their country.
They go to mass and work for Church. They pray
everyday.

However, they do not love the Philippines .. I
talked to two prisoners at the maximum-security compound,
and both of them said that they would leave the
Philippines right after they are released from the
prison. They said that they would start a new life in other
countries and never come back to the Philippines ..

Many Koreans have a great love for Korea so that
we were able to share our wealth with our neighborhood.
The owners of factory and company were distributed their
profit to their employees fairly so that employees could
buy what they needed and saved money for the
future and their children.

When I was in Korea , I had a very strong faith and
wanted to be a priest. However, when I came to the Philippines ,
I completely lost my faith.
I was very confused when I saw many unbelievable
situations in the Philippines .. Street kids always make me sad,
and I see them everyday. The Philippines is the only Catholic
country in Asia , but there are too many poor people here.
People go to church every Sunday to pray, but nothing has
been changed.

My parents came to the Philippines last week and
saw this situation. They told me that Korea was much poorer
than the present Philippines when they
were young. They are so sorry that there are so
many beggars and street kids. When we went to Pasangjan,
I forced my parents to take a boat because
it would fun. However, they were not happy after
taking a boat. They said that they would not take the boat
again because they were sympathized the
boatmen, for the boatmen were very poor and had a
small frame. Most of people just took a boat and enjoyed it.
But, my parents did not enjoy it because of love
for them.

My mother who has been working for Catholic Church
since I was very young told me that if we just go to
mass without changing ourselves, we are not
Catholic indeed. Faith should come with action.
She added that I have to love Filipinos and do good things
for them because all of us are same and have received a great
love from God. I want Filipinos to love their
neighborhood and country as much as they love God
so that the Philippines will be well off.

I am sure that love is the keyword, which Filipinos
should remember. We cannot change the sinful structure at once.
It should start from person. Love must start in everybody,
in a s mall scale and have to grow. A lot of
things happen if we open up to love. Let's put away
our prejudices and look at our worries with our new eyes.

I discover that every person is worthy to be
loved. Trust in love, because it makes changes possible.
Love changes you and me. It changes people, contexts and
relationships. It changes the world. Please love your
neighborhood and country.

Jesus Christ said that whatever we do to others we
do to Him. In the Philippines , there is God for people who
are abused and abandoned. There is God who is crying for love.
If you have a child, teach them how to love the Philippines ..
Teach them why they have to love their neighborhood and country.
You already know that God also will be very happy if you love others.

That's all I really want to ask you Filipinos.

(FOR THE LOVE OF OUR COUNTRY PLEASE PASS THIS MESSAGE

Actually, this is not new to me. Ive been inspired by the korean's devotion and patriotism to their own country w/c is one reason ive been following and watching over their progress for a few years. Many would say siguro na its only because of the korean dramas and movies ive been watching. Well, that could be my basis because ive learned about them thru those dramas and movies na rin. But ive also been watching some of their traditions and heritage thru the television. Not that i dont love the Philippines but i agree with what's been written by that young korean. Are we gonna deny it when it's visibly in front of our very eyes. The fact that almost every single pinoy would want to leave the country as soon as they got the chance. All for the money, i'd say but how about patriotism? Our country isnt so bad, its the people that doesnt care that made it. Im homed at Bohol all my life til i graduated from college but when i came north, what i envisioned of how beautiful the countryside and the modern way of the metropolitan was turned upside down coz mainly of the polution ive seen, s'well as the poverty that has been worsened by the unsurmountable population which the government cant barely control and more to add pa. So are gonna deny it? Other countries can see that too. I myself cant deny it. I love our country but im just one young fellow who can watch from the shadows amongst the huge crowd. I cant think of any other country to live other than the Philippines coz its just it. I may have dreamt of seeing the Eiffel Tower, stand by the Liberty Statue, go afloat by the Seines River, eat at some bistro in France, or whatever and wherever it may be, but one thing im sure, i'll still come home in the Philippines. Coz it always been a home to me... and my only country. yun lang... :)

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i've been thinking...

- let's just say, i work more with my head than my heart...

- im emotionally sensitive, that's a given, but the more i use my heart/emotions, the harder the fallback i get.. --- that is why i rather leave being, kinda, just kinda cold...

- once i told someone that something good is gonna happen, the more it'll not really happen or just the opposite...

- ive been drinking coffee so much these days...

- i havent been reading so much lately and i really miss it! so i got myself a new paperback, Crichton's Rising Sun...

- ive been sleeping in early, like if i had insomnia before, now its totally the opposite... how do we call that? hehehe...

- im still single...

- i dont want kids anymore (not if ____'s the father!), even if artificial ensemination cost a dime, peso diay... (u think im gonna eat my own words for this!)

- im enjoying watching PBB... Mariel's being a housemate made me... Toni's too but ohhhh, she was released so soon... i can see, twas really a challenge for them, and they look so funny but its also good lookin at them, like for real and not as celebs...

- i cant think anymore, im really seeing bed now...

- okay, enough!!!

- why do i always use elipses so often ... ... ... ...

- gud nayt!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

It's exactly 5:08 AM as im typing this down. Im just feeling so down... Not a good start but something's really buggin me these days. Is Sarah G. really worth this mess? Im not even sure what to think anymore, i just wanna be freed from all these. How can being happy be so bad? I wasnt even as ecstatified as i thought i'd be, but i thought it was nice, good to have given meself a little freebie after the whirlwind job i just had. Hay... Life!

Well, anyways, gotta run... I still have to live my life. Do my job. Feed my hungry heart. Explore my soul. And enchant my eyes to the not-so enchanting beauty of this place called 'Lagoon?'... I miss you, Bohol!

I am TORN...

I just feel this song is written for me...

-----> <-----

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldnt be that man I adored
You dont seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know him anymore
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I dont care, I have no luck, I dont miss it all that much
Theres just so many things that I cant touch, Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn. torn.

Theres nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings right, Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and Im ashamed bound and broken on the floor
Youre a little late, Im already torn

Coffee Prince Eun-Hye

From Princess Chae-gyung to Queen of Grapes, now she's the Coffee Prince. This is the 3rd drama of korean actress Yoon Eun Hye is in.

After her Taekwondo class has been corrupted and kicked out of her few (odd) jobs but having to support her younger sister's school fees and her mom's penchant for pretty-pink girly stuffs, she needed a job badly. In Coffee Prince, Go Eun Chan (Yoon Eun Hye) is a strong-willed girl who pretends to be a boy in order to be allowed to work in an all-men coffee shop called Coffee Prince managed by Han Kyul (Gong Yoo). Aside from the financial problem her family is currently in, her very reason of wanting to be working in that coffee shop is because of her love over coffee and its been her dream of becoming a Barista.

This drama started a few weeks ago. Rumors about Eun-hye having her hair chopped just so her character, Eun-chan, would be justified, made her fans and even not go curious as to how it'll go. The first few week has already put them at the top 5 among the best korean drama on air today. Then just this week, apparently at the 8th episode, it surprisingly rates 2nd. I hope it wont stop there, since the drama's still halfway thru.

Well, it's also my second time to watch a korean drama on-air, religiously, last was Princess Hours and that was a year and half ago. And proving myself that i'm not the only one addicted, while watching or after, i couldnt help but browse and post at Soompi's Coffee Prince thread and see that there are more than a few of us who's also following live and even learn korean just so we wont have to wait for english subtitles to be released by WITHS2. Anyways, ive also been checking Eunhye's cyworld, and evidently, she looked really happy working with all the cast and in the show. Her last post on her main page was 'I'm very very happy...' which is I believe is really said sincerely, just as how she posts everything from being sad and sick, and about her family or even her beloved puppy, Kkok-Maeng.

So, that's all... Im still waiting for Monday for the 9th cup of Coffee Prince... Annyeong!

Gilmore Girls ends...

I was able to do a marathon for a few days ng Gilmore Girls season 7 and natapos kaninang madaling araw. Thinking alone that it'll be ending, i was already so sad but watching it til the very last moment was even sadder.

I couldnt help myself but get so attached to The Gilmore Girls coz i started watching them since they started airing. I was so addicted to them, firstly coz they were both pretty and humorous at the same time. It's also like having both of what i am in both of them, 'cept for the height coz both of 'em are tall. The ever so witty character, freedom loving and the I-can-do-evrything kinda woman is what I like about Lorelai... And Rory, i just naturally like her. It could be coz were almost the same age. Same generation maybe. Peers. Or all in all, im almost idolizing her that when i was in high school, i always try to have what she has... Hehehe, really... started in episode 1 where I need to have a G-Shock watch coz i always saw it on her wrist, good thing, my aunt gave me as a gift. Then, there's this novels she's read, since i was really into books/pocketbooks and that's the least i'd ignore, so there i tried reading and lookin for those books, luckily i was able to read some but some were really hard finds... And last but not the least, COFFEE... where else could i have gotten that? Who else could drink at least five cups of coffee in a day but the Gilmore Girls. Im really unto coffee since forever, so it was nothing to me but as natural too. My addiction didnt come from them but from my dear grandma who doesnt fail to serve us every breakfast. Well suffice it to say but I was the only one who retained Coffee as part of my daily system's mobility. Well, that's only a few amongst those other things...

Anyways, back to the show... I couldnt help but tear up starting from the 2nd to the last episode. They didnt really show any signs of ending yet but Rory's graduation, i couldnt help but look back to my own grad so i felt nostalgic coz of the event. But from the beginning of the Final Episode: Bon Voyage, i started feelin really close to tears already. Thinking of not seeing them together in the future anymore, i started missing them... no re-runs for me, so dont try suggesting. I try to avoid watching old eps that ive seen already. Hah! miss them already... I just cant help thinking what might happen to Rory going to that trip as an Online Journalist. It was a relief that Lorelai and Luke get back together coz it would be a waste for there relationship to end especially that Rory's gone, how'll Lorelai live? Luke's really an angel.

Anyways, the ending left me some rethorical thought. They at least leave me a very genuine answer to my quest for quite a while. After some thought, i said to myself "why not? if Rory can, why cant i? both of them has always been the mysterious contributor to how my life's running. not that i depended on it, but being alone and doing evrything all by yourself, you'd always want someone else to help u push or even a kick so u'd so something u think is right bu still hesitating. or a someone helping u out to do only the right thing, and thats them to me. my inner-ego. i miss them already... but nonetheless, Ciao Gilmore Girls! Huhuhu...

refill me

• book - for the 1st time, i havent finished a book this month.. as in, grabeh, success! twas actually my outh, to not buy a book this month, or same as not reading any too.. but then, as a practical me, ive always stocked some extra books for, just extras, so I had my hands on it na from the start pero I was just mindless in reading it. not even finishing a chapter. i felt hellish and so un-me, not focusing on a book pero at least ive succeeded. and twas promising of me that makes me afraid to make this a habit, rather, reading an unhabitual thing for me. mag-unsa na lang ko :(
• coffee to tea - been avoiding coffee too... injustice and inhumane na jud.. pero evryones been fussing over my coffee intakes... ngano man diay beh???  as far as my info goes, there's a little difference between coffee and tea's substances. they have oxidizing agent or whatever it is and they have both caffeine.. and to think na decaffeinated na akong tig-inom... Folgers Decaf for that matter, cant taste the difference. but still, I thought i had to try tea kay ive been having my insomia attack na naman...
• no internet??? aja!!! and Fighting jud! coming home's an ultimate dream.. just cant trade internet over it... :)

2nd year nko sa Jaka...

my non-existing two years in the world...

and this is what i did most... read.. read... and read...

my latest pocketbook... Summer Pleasure by Nora Roberts

ako pa na'ng gi-save from my cyworld.. hehehe...

today, my angel's day...

d best among my best friends..

d sweetest among my lovers...

d prettiest in my universe...

my best teacher...

my surrogate mother...

my crying buddy...

my protector...

and amongst all...

my dearest lola celia, i miss u so very much...

same day as today, years ago, ive mourn for you leaving us

but i know, ur also happy coz finally ur gonna have your wings

that way, ull watch, all of us, w/ just flitting and flying from the sky

but u know, i wont mind seeing u... just the same, ur my angel.

ill still keep our secret...

by the way, im sharing my voice for today, like u want me to... :)

Hot day...

summer na... ive always liked this time of the year due to the warm and hot atmosphere. staying out is just so practical, espeacially going to the beach w/c i love most of all... but what i notice especially is the clear skies above... clear-blue w/ a few streaks of white clouds...

back when i was still in tagbilaran, ive always walked from home to anywhere i go.. they'd even teased me na "wala'y dos", meaning i cant afford a fare.. but it isnt like that... ive always liked lookin around... seeing the leaves getting burnt from the blazing sun... looking forward to the falling of it after a month or so... who says, there's only two seasons in the Philippines? hehe, joke? nope, ive always follow the 4 season thingy coz thats what i see and i notice... right after summer, when school starts, i'll always play w/ those flown leaves from summer on my way to school. then newborn leaves would start growing from mother trees and bushes... thats how i count the few blessings i have... there's always something to look forward to after the season ends... the smell of the leaves, so potent makes me feel alive and move along weather...

i wish i could get back to those moments.. take a look and experience it all again... and now, make new memories from it and capture to last...

seriously fallen...

or maybe, im just over-reacting...

actually, i still dont know if doing this would help but i just feel like writing down what im feeling right now. usually, i put everything down in my diary, in my notebook or any paper that i could ink down what ive felt instead of saying it verbally... if so, thats not me!

im already 24... thats a fact... but how could i not live like some normal 24-year-olds do? in the normal flow of life, dba im supposed to have a lovelife already? or yet, married na or working professionally after graduating from college or living away from my parents. well, the last part is actually reasonable since i dont have the normal family. years of preparation to an independent life doesnt help me get my independence but the opposite. i could call my life full before this, i could do everything i wanted, i even had a job back then. funny, but why does i felt like my life is going backwards... is this just paranoia? or maybe, im just aching to have someone, like a partner(?)... aint that too proper? hahaha... sorry, im just built that way. or my grandma would say, "Gi, impolite!"... maybe, calling it being tired of this too uptight life is enough. looking back, i never really cared about having a boyfriend coz i was more than busy with my living. of course, i had a few tickling moments too whenever there was a guy nearby or trying to get near whichby, i pushed back to rear-end. so of course, nobody's that indespensible enough to get enough of my evasiveness... actually, thats lucky for them that they didnt get stinked by me.. but there's a somebody. a somebody who i thought, would never be as important as he is trying to come back as often as often as i thought... but he a has life that he's living now... so ive to start forgetting it, ryt? but how do i erase memories.. the best, at that?

wahhh, this is totally insane... and its all Dal Ja's fault. its korean tv-drama by the way. the one im currently watching ryt now. its a story of a woman finding her life at the age of 33 but i dont wanna reach that age b'fore i got my life in order, that's pathetic... hope thsi sickness would end na kay im more than tired enough to live w/ this... hayzz... help!

melody and lyrics...

"A melody is like seeing someone for the first time. The physical attraction, SEX... But then as you get to know the person, thats the lyrics. Their story. Who they are underneath..." - Drew Barrymore, Music & Lyrics

Just got me to a deep thinking when i get to that part of the movie. i remember my college classmate & singing buddy, Cherwen.. well, what i really remember is not really about the exact same quoted words but the whole conversation thing. Maybe because i always remember him whenever i get to see a music artist, particularly coz he's also one and one of the best i know. I sound like a fan now... hehehe... well, its not an everyday thingy that u get to meet someone you'll really admire. And get a chance to do things together.. he's actually the one who made me sing on stage when i was in college that nobody ever does... not only because he's my music instructor, music buddy, duet partner and all, but his humility encouraged me to do it. he is a Genius, thats a fact. i mean, really, he is the smartest person i met. his music talent is also surmountable. i dont know how he does it but ive seen that he knows to play almost all music instrument and mind you, his voice isnt a nothing... but the thing is he never flaunts it... he shares and he gives what he has but he remains humble... he always stays on the ground while flying on top... hmmm... well, cguro i just miss him around bisan ako siya giaway before... im really baddd... but wherever he is right now, i hope & wish him well... (>.<)

hayzz, im suppose to write about the movie but it ends up differently.. ☺

One Flaw in Women

One Flaw in Women 
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they
think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.   
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have the compassion and ideas.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
 
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

first day...

wla lang, im all _blank right now...

new year update?

--started gilmore girls season 7 - i just finished ep1-3 staight

--ill be subbing Snow Queen Ep12.. gotta start tomorrow, clocks ticking...

--etching to get a new book, indi ko pa tapos yung Hope's Highway by Dorothy Garlock pero i cant sustain all those serious stuffs/convos for now ksi lalong nakakadepress. gotta find something na nakakauplift ng spirits or anything na naddstruct yung moods swings ko...

-- _blank ulet...

2006 events to remember:

--Everything about Yoon Eun Hye...

--Ive watch about more or less 100 K-Dramas and movies * Total Junky*

--ive become a fansubber

--ive made friends at baGoongers!

--i was all Goong/Princess Hours/Palace addict

--loveless gihapon

--napanood ko live si Regine sa Araneta...

--no new years resolution...

--indi ako lumundag nung New Years day, instead i was in the darkness... hehehhe... sumakit ang ulo ko - whats the real significance of NEW YEARS Day ba talaga? i was all thinking just that while the whole world was up and about obviously celebrating the event...

-what is love? at vaket nabuntis ang isang 14 year old na babae dahil dun? and she's gonna keep the baby daw... but Lane, 22 yrs old & married just wanna let it out of her system daw... hmmpp?

may pumasok na sa isip ko;

I just love this conversation between Lorelie and Chris in the last part ng Gilmore Girls Season7 Ep 3...

Lorelie and Christopher has a 22 yr old daughter already which is Rory but they never married... Lorelie's been engaged twice but never to Chris, while Chris is married and has a daughter named Gigi (d ba, sister ko si Rory) but his wife left him and flew to another man's arm leaving Gigi in the care of Chris... so to make d story short, here's the convo after Rory left when she felt when the three of them were in a compromising situation...

[intro] Lorelie just came from a cotillion for young girls wearing a white, flowing dress and plunging neckline. While Chris and Rory were having a convo wether they would feed Paul Anka, Lor's doggie, something meaty from where they dined together...

Rory: K, I think i should take Paul Anka for his walk. Thanks for dinner dad. (just an excuse to make a room for the two to talk)

Chris: Yeah, Thanks Girl...

Lor: did u guys have fun?

Chris: its good, really good. first time i ever saw her order a drink.

Lor: strange right?

Chris: very strange. anyway, i should be going...

Lor: im sorry, i didnt call u back

Chris: its okay

Lor: i was going to, it was just...

chris: dont worry, i understand

Lor: do u want some coffee or anything?

Chris: sure

Lor: okay

Chris: actually, know what? i cant...

Lor: oh! okay

Chris: i just cant sit here and have coffee with you... I love you. I know the other night didnt mean for you what it did for me but i dont regret it and i havent stop thinkin about it since it happened... not just because it was great, which it was. but because it was right. it was so right Lor, you may not see that right now but i do. and if ive to wait til were both 80 years old for you to see it, then ill wait. im not goin anywhere. this is it for me. you are "it" for me... and i just cant pretend the feeling less that i do.. i cant... i just cant...

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ohhhhh... nakkalunod lang ksi eh.. may magsasabi kya sa sakin ng mga katagng yun... kuh! dreaming na naman, as if may mag-aantay sayo Gi...

anyways, indi naman ksi si Chris ang gusto ko for Lorelie ngayon eh but si Luke... well, before cguro when Luke didnt came to the picture in Lor's life but now's different... kung ako si Lorelie, kakantahin ko na lang "sana, dalawa ang puso ko... na.. na..." hayyy, lookin forward sa episode 4.. sino kaya?

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may video na pla ako sa cyworld ko ni Yoon Eun Hye... feel free to visit na lang...

http://us.cyworld.com/buffyreg

un-merry christmas...

music: Hawak Kamay by YENG (bagong bersyon)

wahh... ang lamig sa labas...

hay, ngayon pa lang umayos-ayos ang kalusugan ko since dec 24... grabeh, malas talaga. well, i thought twas just some cold ksi nga malamig ang panahon but later nag worsen na, bahing na ako ng bahing nung andun na kami ng mudra ko sa MOA ksi nga iwas daw sa mga inaanak dhil indi pa nawala ang inis niya bcoz xmas05, todo handa siya pero ni isa walang dumating kaya ngayon siya naman ang eskapo. anyways, the nxt day w/c is the very xmas, mas lumala, indi na ako makahinga kaya todo inom ng gamot at pahid ng vicks, hahaha... then sa 26, wala na akong boses... well, may natira naman pero parang may echo ang sarili kong throat, as in feeling ko galit na galit sakin si lord ksi natulugan ko ang mga misa de gallo. so yun, super laga naman ako ng luya para at least man lang may maisigaw naman if may magtaTime na internet cafe... pero indi nakaya ng luya hanggang hapon... so kanina, 27th, may nangyari - with the help of valda, vicks, tabletas at ng luya c/o my dearest mudra - at last naririnig ko na ang sarili ko khit medyo may echo pa rin pag kumanta (nagawa pa talagang kumanta)... so yun, sana bukas totally healed na... feel ko ng magconcert ulet.. hehehh... ang kulit talaga... so yun ang story ng xmas ko...

sana wala namang kamalasan sa new year... hmmmp...

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im still missing my old way christmas back home at soledad, as well as new year din... sana next year, jan na aq.

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@ lola C - salamat sa ALLS WELL THAT ENDS WELL, nkalimutan ko saglit ang sakit ko... bl8d merry xmas po.

@ sonia f - saan ba ako makakabili ng isang VASH? may kafatid pa yun? kahit sa labas, okay lang. ang bait niya, sana may ganyan pa ngayon. hehhe, im following ur BBC series na rin. btw, umaarangkada na ang Goong/Princess Hours natin... AJA sis!!! belated merry xmas din...

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sarap talaga ng chocolate mousse 0____________________0

havoc inside

this fueled spent ferousity inside me just keeps on turning on like a womens monthly visitor without even giving me such notice. all i need is a day off of all life's grief, misery and lies but everytime i do just that, the world return such a  menacing laughter and turn me back to thy icy self. thus giving me such hunger for this achingly outburst. but no, i need to be sensible and give a quick bangin on the head. never let a sudden burst of anger takeover you. no one knows better than your own self. a simple hormonal embalance doesnt help anything but such a thing would coz a disastrous consequences, moreover, it would coz ur lifetime...

never ever ever ever ever ever give up on life... you may have been in a fairytale-like past but it doesnt guarantee to last your lifetime. and though you've been in the worst life unimaginable, believe that the future is still waiting for you, its yours for free, not on sale. and like a piggybank, try putting even a cent every moment youve the chance and maybe in the future, it'll be the best investment that'll hold you for life.

be sensible...

cool down...

Mamaya na ang Goong!!!

I just felt like remiscing nung pinapanood ko yung Goong o Princess Hours before ng live sa internet... im really a JUNKIE!!!

Eto yung pi-nost ko nun kinabukasan after watching ep 24 & the special! late ang date jan ksi medyo late and timzone ko ng fwiendster eh ng 1 day...

PRINCESS HOURS NA MAMAYA!!!

ganda talaga ni Eun Hye - ssi!!! AJA!!!

happy new year!

gear up!

outside, the moon is halfway hiding the darken clouds.

the storm has passed.

and though someone is gone,

im one life ahead of me from today.

a new countdown to 365 days.

a new beginning.

a tear may fell as im feeling this twitching inside.

hold-up. a smile instead.

a warm welcome to the new year in this mournful morning.

the irony of life.

only wish, be with you.

and you.

you.

happy new year to me!

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thanx sa mga indi nakalimut, u know who u r. u've made me smile ^_^

d snow queen-ish in me...

I just finished watching the first episode of Snow Queen, starring Hyun Bin oppa and Sung Yu-Ri unnie. At first, i just wanna watch it coz of Hyun Bin but then, as that little girl was shown (whose soon to be Yu-Ri's char) i felt somewhat DÉ JAVU'ed. and just thinkin about that, i feel like crying. I dunno what others think about me. am i a cold person? how do we defy it? Is being a Loner means ur a cold person? When I asked some friends before, they would just say that im a real nice person. But arent we all, if we chose to? Even a dog can be nice too... Ahhhhhhhhhhhh... Sometimes, it pains me thinking why im living my life this way. But if my moody self strikes, id just say, "Better this way anyhow"... others would even agree, i suppose.

Hehehe... ga-drama na pud! But life is a drama, d va? And a fairytale, too. I'll be Cinderella without Prince Charming. I am Goldilocks with Black, Ebony Hair. Im Sleeping Beauty with eyebags. And according to Alanis, "Isnt it Ironic, Dont You Think?" -- just like as most often, how we want to live our life opposite to ours. But then, i like my life naman eh, just that some of it are undeniably horrendous and though im a logical person and truth is nothing but a fact, some of them are just too hurtful to even try to blurt and swallowing it is the easiest way out and thats what i do best.

I really hate phone-calls, i dunno why? text isnt bad namn, ive had some kitikitext moments with my friends when i was in college, na khit "Bang!" lang ang text sa kin and "Bang!" lang din ang reply ko, saya ko na... at imagine, nauuubos load ko dati indi pa kalahati ng expiration date... pero ngayon, ang dalang na. at times, i just put my cell sa room ko and thats it, it stays there for a day or two na indi ko nasisilip man lang, eh mahirap rin namn ksi signal d2 sa min ng smart kya ganun. yan, feeling ko, ive changed so much. ano, colder na? ive tried going back to thy old self but then, im afraid that others would feel indifferent din to me due to my inactivity sa mundo... bka ma-alienate sila sa kin... okey lang sana kung classmates ko sina Chaegyung sa Goong para pareho kaming lahat, mga aliens, but im in earth pa rin eh. BREAK... dead-end na, layo na sa topic eh...

Pero tanong ko lang mga earthlings? - anong internet line ang maganda ngayon, for indiviadual PC lang pero hindi Wi-Fi ha...

CVSCAFT-TCC CoE Batch05

Visit kuno mo sa ginama ni Glad na website sa atong Batch, www.batch05.co.nr ...

To Glad, hey ngano man kana na picture oy? uwaw man pud ta ana! but all in all, nice man... anad jud ka glad ☺

buffyreg.tk

hehehe...☺ got me a new link! you can use this new and short way to get into this site...☻ just type http://www.buffyreg.tk or http://buffyreg.tk or simply buffyreg.tk ....☺ mas konti na lang itatype nyo para maabot ang mundo ko... ☻

have fun...☺ enjoy everyone!!! ☻

New D-Funsubs Blogspot

http://d-fansubs.blogspot.com/ - my baby...

All information, releases and announcements from DF or about DF will be posted in this site. Hope you'll enjoy ur visit!!!

my hometown... sa bohol

just need to post this... para maibsan ang kamingaw...

i really miss tagbilaran... and bohol... soledad... my friends... and of kors, my beloved family ♥

the slideshow:

panglao beach (white sand), our cathedral, our mercado (market), the oceanjet (tagb-cebu), tha infamous tarsier, the loboc river (green river) and the floating restaurant, the mag-aso falls (hot spring, mag-aso stands for smokey), tagbilaran city port, dolphins and some snapshots of the sunset/sunrise from the city bay...

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ewan, wla akong ma-post eh....

BLOG UPDATES

Ive been doing some changes in my blog... For some, it may be useful but for others, its irritating na kasi napupuno inbox nila (aminin!) and for that, i apologize... Medyo, na-bore ksi ako sa dati eh, my bad ksi i get easily bored about something or anything. How do i explain it? Its always like, wanting something better, tapos pag may nakita na akong better, i still want to get the best... hehehe... senseless! im used to be so simple minded and used to settle for the "okeys" but ive changed in a short time, i dont like it! Ottaekaji?

MY First DF job...

This caps is taken from The Vineyard Man Ep.4, my first Timing job in D-Funsubs...Just makes me smile lookin at it, esp. my credits name falls on Ji Hyun-ssi... cute! hehhee... ☻

My CYWorld

Here's my  new CYWorld...

http://us.cyworld.com/buffyreg

to CompE 2K5 muse[sa left]

weng & me @ the bscompe batch 05 ringhop ceremony...

drama kaau dots noh? ☺ wahhhaha... well, wala man ko lingaw and i miss u terribly already... so far this one's the best looking picture natong duha pero gi-edit nako to grayscale kay uwaw ko, wafa bitaw gihapon ka kaau ☺ well, i just couldnt forget the fuzz we did just to get that look we had ☺ hehhee... sayang lang kay wala si loloy sa picture [naa siya sa likod sa imong tapad sa left side], hayyy minus si prince charming na nuon ☺ basta miss u guys ☺ just wanna reminisce the moment...

neways, hope to see u pohon... ☺

♥♥♥  ♥  ♥♥♥  ♥  ♥♥♥  ♥  ♥♥♥  ♥  ♥♥♥  ♥  ♥♥♥  ♥  ♥♥♥ 

at Regine's "TWENTY" Concert yesterday

Regine Velasquez's 2nd part of the concert "Twenty" last night, Oct.14.2006, at the Araneta Coliseum was really a success. I never even thought i would able to watch the concert if not for my long-distant cousin from Cagayan who's a Regine fanatic & happened to have an extra ticket for the concert. It was pure luck on my part especially that i didnt even have the faintest idea who he was until the thing about the concert was mentioned. Well, not that im not a fan but the coming to the concert would be impossible coz its quite pricey for me. When it was confirmed that ive the ticket already, i was happy but i didnt really put it to heart coz theres a chance that it may be taken back and i dont want to bring my hopes up. Then came yesterday...

When we - my mom, julwayne(my cousin), ellen(julwayne's friend) & me - arrived at the Araneta Coliseum, i was still in denial that i was excited... hehehe... blame me but i just couldnt believe what my round-eyes are telling me - ME, in Araneta Coliseum, no way!... but yes, i was able to stand-up and step-on some of my musical idols's STARS at the Araneta Coliseum's pathway... well, we arrived too early enough for me to check on the names within those Stars on the hallway -- Regine Velasquez, Sharon Cuneta, Andrea Bocelli...wahhh! Probinsyana jud! but anyways, i was really exhilirated man beh...

well, i was seated on the front (off the stage)  - row K seat #2 - sa atubangan jud... just enough to see some other artist just watching the show... i was able to take a picture of Sandy & Joseph, who were then eating while i said my "Excuse me, pwede papicture?"... i also saw Jaya, who cried together with Regine when she narrated her story when she was just starting to become a STAR... and Beth Tamayo, seated 2 rows in front of me, pretty niya talaga...

Then the lights went-off and the aria "Narito ako" was sang by a shadow in the dark just as Regine in her pink, feathery costume --- The Songbird --- came to view... I couldnt imagine my eyes coz its really my first time to see her in person... and singing some of her songs that ive only heard on the radio or in my music player... of course i couldnt stop singing together with her and/or humming with her but whenever she made those beltching notes, im at lost for words and my mind just went with the notes... It was called an ALL-MALE-GUEST and those males are Dennis Trillo -- whose sooo beautiful... i cant imagine, i could describe a guy beautiful but he really is, in a manly way... soo verile and sooo manly man... not at all pa-cute but definitely undescribably beau..., Gabby Eigenman, Eric Santos, Mark Bautista, Marc of Shamrock & Jed Madela , who sang with her in duets of those movie theme songs she was in... and theres also these three starstruck guys but i only knew Mark Herras, who danced in a RnB/Pop tune... And of course, Mr.Robin Padilla... napa-grabehhh talaga aq...they were soo sweet though im not sure if its for publicity only coz of their movie "Til I Meet You", which Regine also sang while having Robin in her Arms, er vice-versa... huh, Robin also kissed her -cheeks-lips-cheeks-... hell, i dunno whose lucky enough...hahhaha...but they looked great...^__^

For me, Regine really Shines... not only beacuse of her her unduly success as an artist and as the asia's songbird but just because of being who she is... being humane... as a songbird, she neveralways staying on the ground looking down and humble... never failing to give and share, generously, her talent to those who truly admire her... and though, she's already on top, she never forgets those who helped her and be with her in her ups and downs in her carrier...

To Sangay/Ibon, you're always the best... i'll always love ur music and continue singing with you hanggat kaya kong abutin ang nota mo and kahit hanggang banyo lang...^__^

I just wish i'd still get another ticket for ur next concert event... hehehe...

-Gigi

Lets Get Married....

what:

I just finish watching this 12-episode japanese drama, 'The Man Who Cant Get Married'... The story is about a 40 yr old guy. He's an architect and he doesnt look bad, a very sought after among women for a husband... but the thing is, he doesnt want to get married... He has this straight-face attitude about life... He avoids imperfections... He doesnt want complications... To sum it all, he doesnt want other people [period] .... Well, not until these 3 pretty ladies, young and pretty faced - Michiru, his 39-yr-old doctor and confidante - Natsuka, & his coleague and friend -[i forgot her name], came into his life in a very unavoidable circumstance... ^___^

my thoughts about it and me:

it was very funny and i was in love with Abe's character. it change 'a little' my perpective about marriage and family... at first i thought, thats what ive been doing... i find myself struct by the reality of being so confident living alone... at a time when i was young, i have come to period when i really avoided having other people around me... its as if ill get suffocated or sumthing alike... and ive resort to live doing everything alone, not asking for anybody else's help or opinion. of course, my family was always within reach but the way i see, i was getting farther from them at that time... well, i dont know how i was changed but im not like that anymore, so it seems...hehehe... the way i see it, before im more like " i wont get married" but now, its "when i find the right alien who'd get along with my eccentricity"... ^__^

asa na man mo?

nganong kinahanglan man mausob ang tanan oi? pareho lang unta gihapon sauna... dots, laag ta... loy, hatod ko sa matthew beh... ligo ta panglao... adto ta badjang...  hehehe, those were the old days... and i do miss it so much... i dunno but im feeling so lonely ryt now... empty jud kaajo... asa ra man mo mga angi-a mo? paramdam na man kayo jan...

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currently listening to YEH's CYWorld's jukebox... puros mingaw pa jud iyang mga music... Kim Jong Kook pa jud kinaunhan... :(

The Music of the Heart

author: anonynous

In every human heart there is always a special song.
A melody that touches the soul, a melody that can do no wrong.
Sometimes we hear a sad song when good friends part,
Or simply for a broken tired heart.
Sometimes we hear a happy song when a new baby is born.
Or simply it is just for a beautiful morn.
With any song there are many movements,
But that divine melody never ever relents.
One movement will be sad;
the next movement will make us feel glad.
Life is made up of many songs.
Each song is special. Each song belongs.
Each day is orchestrated to perfection by the divine.
But there will always be one song that is uniquely mine.
The music of the heart accompanies us throughout life.
In happiness and in strife.
But it will always be there to bring comfort and peace.
With this melody comes the greatest release.
Embrace that special song in your heart.
That divine melody and you will never ever part.
It will always be there when you need to hear it.
Be still, be at peace and listen to it.
Always give thanks for that special song from above.
Listen to the music of the heart and fill the world with love.

Firefly

memo[r]ies... happiness... pain... 

a light flew by m[e], my firefly came by again...

stayin[g] with me in this cold night...

but the pa[i]n inside remains...

lingering withi[n] me...

but with [a] friend...

a tear fell.[.].

smile [^.^]   

UnLeash me...

how come i feel like my whole being is stuffed within something so small yet i live so freely? though, i havent been able to be out to the busy streets for a quite awhile, its not as if its a big dilemna and i dont really make a big issue about it. but, at times, i feel so exhausted just doing what im doing right now...

this whole fiasco inside of me, like the devil, would wanna go out and want to be unleashed... i  just couldn't pinpoint what is it that i wanna do this moment... so far, ive been busy enough that a day would just go by, never knowing that its already tomorrow... but still, there's still something thats crazily wanting to be freed here... within... or is it just the weather?

YOUR GREATEST LOVE

I really dunno how to start this coz whichever way im gonna right this down, err type pla, it would still end up in a very depressing fact that however hope, wish & pray we will do, its still a fact that, according to A.M.Y., a radio talkshow that i frequent evry 12:30-2:00 am, "WE ONLY HAVE 3 GREATEST LOVE IN OUR LIVES  and AMONG THOSE THREE, NOBODY WILL EVER BE WITH US... LIKE, FOREVER"...

wla lang, i just really need to write or post it somewhere so i could see it sometimes and be reminded... samot na... wla ko kasabot uy... then whats the point of getting married? arent people get married coz they want to spend the rest of their live with their greatest love... unsaon na lang... well, if thats the case, why wont the government just allow Divorce in our country... mao ra to...thats all...

How Much Land A Man Need?

Actually, i only heard this question this evening , in a mass of my mom's father's cousin... "How Much Land A Man Need?" ... At first, i almost even laugh because of the question itself... lol[kailangan p bang itanong yan?] ... but when the priest was story telling it, i get to realize that the question is much more of a rethorical question and not really a question, like Q & A.

here's the story: [ he got it from a Russian writer, forgot the name]

[shortened/summarized]

In some faraway kingdom, there live a young man who wanted to live grandly and luxurously but he's only a servant of the king. Everytime he would wander around and all over the kingdom and imagine that everything belongs to him. Then one day, the king asked him:

King: Young man, how much land you need to live in this world?"

Man: Of course, I want to have everything I see.

King: Then I'm going to grant your wish. Go around the whole kingdom and every place that you have stepped-on would then belong to you in 12 hours.

So right there and then, the man went about the whole kingdom. He started from the lowest ground, never missing every single room and never leaving a single trace. And because of his greediness to have the whole kingdom for himself, even if he was already too tired to walk, he still continued unto his business. Later, after how many hours, he was already too tired that he cant even carry his feet from the ground but there was only a few steps left. So complete his wish, he crawled his way just so he would reach his goal. Then just as he reach and could have the kingdom, that's when everything turned black for him. And never even have the chance to shout for joy that he could have had the kingdom.

Now, what the young man was able to use from his suppose to be his kingdom is only the 4 X 6 X 6 mts. of land for his grave. Fin...

That's how i realize that our life is more important than what material things we wanted. Im not really a materialistic person but sometimes we just couldnt avoid that needs and wants sometimes mesh together... Ryt now, im gonna focus on needs, of course with wants included unavoidably, but we have to reconsider everything b4 we go too far enough that backing-out from things is impossible already... We dont have to have evrything esp unimportant things coz life isnt really permanent in this world. Everything we have is just temporary and we couldnt bring it to our grave...^.^

Im PiSSeD!!!

Sorry na lang sa mga nanonood at sa mga manonood pa sana... my account in Youtube is terminated, for the second time... and im not happy about that for now so pls spare me ur questions... your condolences is much appreaciated though... kamsahamnida...

-Gigi/Buffyreg

Just last night, ive finished uploading Son Ye-Jin's movie The Art of Seduction at my youtube account but this morning when i signed-in, its all gone... how can they possibly do that... napungot jud ko... I was even ecstatic 'cause im gonna read pretty comments about the movie but its all reversed to turmoil... evrything is wasted... it says, "The account is premanently suspended." huh? crap... those admins are full of crap, SHARING? bull... what are we gonna share? those idiotic, stupid and senseless vids... arent they suppose to be happy coz people get to open their site and watch movies or nice music videos or even follow dramas that they dont get to watch in the theatre or tv sets... ?

Huhuhu... now i  miss my videos... The whole "A Love To Kill" took me almost 3 weeks to finish uploading the whole series... ive already got good praises and hails from viewers... not to mention, my fanvids... my Eun Hye, Geun Young, Ye Jin and other collections are gone... makapungot, for the nth time... HUH!!!

Ambot nila... mawala pa unta ng youtube-ba na... i swear, daghang mga uploaders na ilang gi-terminate ang malipay...and im gonna cheer with them...

OTTAEKI?

옵바 날로, 사랑해...

I just wanna say, thank you for the being there for me in the past but the best memories i had in my life... I never felt secured in my life when im with you... You were my knight... You are my Heathliff while Im the Catherine locked in my abode... And though im in retreat, you are still in my deepest thought... I miss you... -지지

wla lang again..

im bored...

K A M I N G A W

dugay-dugay na jud ko wala nakabisaya ug diretso noh? mingaw bya pud... sauna, dli gani ko kahilwas ug usa ka tagalog kay uwaw pero karon, dli na jud pwede...  haay, mao jud ni LIFE... gusto na jud ko mouli sa tagbilaran pero gusto pud ko mosuway ug lain nga lugar ug bisan ug tagsa ra ko kalakaw ug lain-lain nga lugar, at least, naanad na ko ginagmay sa kinabuhi sa syudad... lahi ra jud sa manila bisan unsaon nako ug tan-aw... kinapaspasan ang adlaw... feeling nako, bag-o pa ko dri sa manila pero tuig na bya pud kapin... unya, sa kadugay nko dri, naanad na pud ko sa mga tawo nga akong kanunay nga kakita ug ka-istorya... nya karon pud, sa kadugay nako dri, nisamot ko ka-maldita ug ka-istrikta...

gikapoy na ko ug upload ug A Love To Kill sa youtube oi... ika-9 episode na ko so sayang pud ug moundang ko karon...nya daghan bya pud ko regulars viewers adto...so ako nalang humanon... AJA! himnaeyo...

sole soul...

When a child is born...The Moon Man will tie a red string
on the child's little finger. That child's destined mate is the same as well. -Yoo Eun Ho, Alone in Love

Its actually the first time i hear that saying and from then on, it kept on repeating in my head... I really never thought a simple thing like that would touch this very core of my heart. Before, whatever they say about coupling and having somebody to live with for the rest of your life is nothing but taboo to me... I mean, so what if im gonna live alone for the rest of my life... Call it selfish or maybe arrogant but, for me, having somebody living with you like a second skin is very irritating coz u have to deal with another peson and second, ive been surrounded by divorced or separated couples or even broken families and it's make me think that if thats the case, then what's the use of it... All my life, ive always put in my heart not to have a boyfriend and worst a husband but ive just realize, that wasnt the case. Then it hit me, Im  just AFRAID... Yeah, afraid beacuse of what ive been through since my parents got separated... But if there's really a moonman and ive already have a string attached in my fingers, then somewhere out-there, is already destined to be my soulmate and im not going to be solely living in this world for the rest of my life... Kinsa Kaha? Hmmm, this is going to be the longest and scariest ride of my life... and i guess, the choice isnt mine...THE MOON MAN...

good day kaha?

i havent been around the world for quite a while... ive been hiding in this cave i call computer... havent even under the rays of the sun for a couple of hours in about a year... ive been totally a loss this year... where does the flexible and inevitable Gigi gone? am i still the same girl i know myself as me...AMBOT!

last night, rather this morning around 4am before i felt that my last ounce of consciousness has left me...i remembered evrything that ive done when i was living in my beloved province... and the difference ive noticed living in this so called fantasy world of gigi... In the past 1 year, after i graduated from college, i was totally certain that im going to a straight path that ive seen myself to be in the future... but then, this morning i slept feeling this big whole thats been wasted for a year... i was so busy that i never noticed that i never did anything, rather, important... i was blind for the whole year that i didnt see anything but only feel all the negative emotions and let it cover me entirely and do the reigning... now, what i see is a blur... a blur, that what i could only remember is the  last time, i really felt the true happiness and loss at the same time...

i thought what i did was real but now i realize it was all a dream... all i did was live with my so called internet friends... i had fallen in love with the heroes in the books ive read... i was inspired by those characters in the dramas i religiously watch... i even forgot that im a coffee person that i didnt noticed i havent been having a cup for two weeks already... and the worst, ive stopped going to church... well, not until last week... but was it real? am i going back to myself? GOD HELP ME...

maybe its really coming back... coz, i just received an email that ill be having a job interview next week...and i just had my coffee...

well, at least, ive seen some signs already...

ChaeGyung on the loose...

Ohhh..lala... yeah, this one's the sexiest picture i got of Eun Hye... 'mohn jang (sexy)' na siya after Goong... Right now, most of her projects is modelling for clothes and some commercials... well, i think she's also doing the 2nd season of Goong... really looking forward to it but we still have to wait for about 9 months...

anyways, im pretty close to getting crazy here... just last week, i thought im going home but the plans changed and now, im applying for a job. feeling nako, i'm the worthless person on the face of the earth if i stay this way... so now, im going to focus on the POsiTiVE side... FigHtiNg!!!

traysikul-barko-eroplano...

according to Princess Chaegyung in the korean drama Goong/Palace, stars die after 25,000 years then a new star will then be born and the inhabitants who lived and died between that 25,000 yrs ago will return to earth as it is...   

Well, if ever na mangyari man yun... at maaalala ko pa ang mga nangyayari ngayon... siguro isa lang ang hindi ko gustong maulit, and that wud be coming here *A*A, yeah dito kung san man ako naroroon ngayon... hehehe, nkakatawa siguro ksi para sa iba, im pretty sure,iniisip nila na maswuerte ako in whatever is happening to me right now pero sa totoo lng, this is the last thing na gusto kung gawin, my life being driven by someone else... well, kundi sa mga korean-drama na kinababaliwan ko ngayon, sobra pa siguro sa boring ang life ko...

Its almost a year ago na nisakay ko'g tricycle from our house bringing with me my duffle bag and my hand-carry papuntang tagbilaran city port with tears falling from my bright eyes looking back sa balay where JohnRey(my cousin) was waving and crying kay gustong mouban... As i arrived the port, i went directly sa waiting area ng supercat bound for cebu. Well, cant imagine being alone for the longest ride of my life... then after an hour siguro, i was already in Cebu. God, kulbaan jud ko kaayo kay it was my first time to go out of Bohol alone... when we arrived, i directly looked for a Sikad (tricycle uisng pedal), per instruction by my auntie Abeth, kay i have to go to ride in the Ferryboat for Mactan... Twas both physically tiring and challenging... well, abi nako ug duol ra but then it took us about 30min to reach the ferryboat... There, i bought my ticket then head-on to the ferryboat(well, more like  a raft coz i cud feel the water in my feet, just driven by a motor).  When we arrived, i saw the Sto Nino Chapel, where i used to visit when i was just a kid when i come to my uncle bebot's place in cebu... But my mind and my eyes was more like haunting for this image, si Auntie Narsing, my guide for Mactan Airport... Then there she was in this checkered t-shirt waving at me, and so i come to her... We then got a taxi and head to the airport...  At the airport, we looked for the airline office where i should get my ticket for manila... Well, akala ko deretso na sakay sa plane if i got the ticket na but then i was held sa office to wait for the plane to unload the passengers... When our flight was called, when i was about to go directly to the tunnel, the stewardess stopped me and made me wait in this waiting area but i was really baffled kay ako ra usa... then when most of the passengers was gone already, i was then escorted again to the plane... i was seated at the left wing, aisle side, 2nd row...  ang tagal bago kami nakaalis, yun pala may special na hinihintay... just before the take-off, yun, dumating si Dion Ignacio... Ngek, a